Happy Wednesday Everyone ?

So folks were at the top of the roller coaster about to scream for joy as the weekend approaches, and a bank holiday one at that.

I'm at a slight advantage as I manage to hop on today just as we begin to get ready the end!

Did I ever mention that I was crap at analargys?

I enjoyed my time off , I got to completly chill, go to football and watch some wwe - PERFECT!

Before I get to the point of this blog (yes there is a point) I should point out for those who don't know me as well as others that I am a Christian, I do believe there is someone up there looking doon here.

Over the weekend I intouch with some new people in the twitterverse, and it really has been a God send, and I mean that literally in one particular case

Something that really upsets me the most is feeling helpless. The thought of not being able to help someone when they are feeling down just drives me to tears on occasion and I was faced with this again at the weekend. It hurt because it was someone I love and no matter what I done it didn't help, I felt that I just made things ten times worse.

However we got through this and managed to smile, things may not be quite right but I know now that at the time there was very little I could do.

A day later I was flicking about pages on twitter and someones bio caught my eye. We started tweeting and exchanged some emails. They had went through a smiliar situation and the fact that this person was able to see things from both sides really helped. I was able to open and honest with them without fear of being judged or laughed at. I got advice and I shared that.

It has helped me and I am thankful for this.

Its comforting to know that there are complete strangers out there who are willing to listen and give advice when they don't have to and especially when they have there own problems to deal with.

Anyways I better go, its my turn at Scrabble.

Thank you.

I did consider putting a tear jerker for todays song, but instead I went for a "fuck it lets rock" tune - crank it up to 11!

Supergrass - Richard III http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ISHulhCmVb4

Blog 6.5 - While I remember.......

When I die I want certain songs to be at my funeral. This blog makes sure that its in writing.

When my casket is brought in Simon and Garfunkal - Sound of Silence should be played.

At some point Manic Street Preachers - No Surface All feeling should be play.

Lastly as everyone is leave I want the first few bars of Everyone Hurts by REM played however that should go into Its the end of the world as we know it (and I feel fine) again by REM.

There, its in writing and you have read it, so its on you now!

Blog 6 - Lets have a quickie

I have a day off of work today and its great.

Its a chance to let go and completly chill, basically do sweet F.A.


Todays tune:

Idlewild - Modern Way of Letting go

Living on the edge - Number 5

I have spent most of my life on the fringe of things. At school and college, I was never part of in group, I was never one of the others though either. I sort of floated between, on the edge of things. This wasn't all bad, I was able to have a conversation with almost everyone in my year and get alone with them. However it didn't do much for long term friendships. The only contact I have from that part of my life is through social networking. I have to say in ways I regret this, but looking back I wonder if there is anything that I could have done about it.

I just really didn't fit.

I was thinking about this today and I don't think much has changed.

I spent today meeting people that I will working with at a festival in June and again I found myself on the edge of things floating between different groups at lunch time. The people were nice and friendly, its just me.

The same could apply for Twitter I think, I can't really be bothered sorting out lists like the site lets you but if I did I would probably have maybe three or four groups. Over the past couple of days I have come to realise that I am still on the edge of it all. Listening in.

I guess that's just my role in life. Hovering at the fringe, always wondering if I am just about to fall off.

Track of the day - Arab Strap - There is no end http://bit.ly/bERfUD

I'm a huffy prick at the best of times.

Blog episode 4 - a new hope (that has nothing to do with the content btw)

Hello again and welcome to blog number 4!

Since I started all 5 days ago I have been talking to various people about blogging and how its really helped me with the way I feel sometimes. Although the stuff that ends up on the blog might not have anything to do with it, it still seems to help.

Someone even told me it inspired them to start blogging again, this really made me happy!

I am off work until Wednesday so I can travel up to Dingwall to see Morton play, it may sound sad however I ain't missed a game all season, including friendlies so with 2 games to go I am not missing out now. Safe to say however if those games don't go well their will be tears, proper big grown up ones!

Yes, Morton mean that much to me.

A bonus of taking the two days off means that I get to watch two live WWE events. Those who know me well will know I am a huge wrestling fan and I have been for about 18 years. I can't really tell you why I enjoy it so much, I just do. It can be funny, exciting and emotional all in same show. For those of you laughing at me right now, I don't really care...it's no different from any other TV show! I think I am even slowly but surly winning Emma around to it, even if its just for her love of Randy Orton's thighs!


Apparently Sunday's now have an 8am, and I have just found out that I am getting picked up at said time tomorrow. GAAAAAA

In June I am working at Solas Festival which is essentially the Scottish offspring of Greenbelt. I am really looking forward to it and tomorrow I get to visit the site where it takes place and meet some of the people I will be working with.

Oh if you want to know more about Solas I have dumped a link just below!


http://www.solasfestival.co.uk/

Can't really thing of much else to say tonight, i'm sure there is something about to fall out my head and on to the blog, but maybe not just yet.....

Toodle pip for now......

OHHHH WAIT, STOP! COME BACK.

I almost forgot my tune for the day, this one should is designed to cheer up anyone who is feeling a bit down. If you don't smile at some point during the song then you need a smile transplant. To make sure you enjoy it I am even going to be nice and leave a link to watch the video!

The song is called Elephant Elephant and it is by Evelyn Evelyn...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o7vZqpsJQo0

Please watch it and smile, just once...for me!

Good God I have done it again. Blog Number 3

Todays blog may seem rather sporadic, but thats just me - I make no apologies for me.

Most of the people on who read this I would imagine only know me through twitter, I am very thankful for those people. They are very funny and make me smile when sometimes I can’t. It took me a while to understand the whole twitter thing, however over the past couple months I got into a thing of following some random people and seeing where it took me and that’s what made it a lot more interesting and rewarding.

Through one way or another I now tweet with people in Wales, Northern Ireland, Ireland, Scotland, Chile, South Africa, America even Engerlandshire!
Apologies if I have missed anywhere!

When the earth quake hit Chile a few months ago, it was a genuine relief when the tweeters I followed started tweeting again. If people don’t appear for a few days on my time line, I start to wonder.

I like twitter, its fun. It’s random. It’s what has brought me here and I quite like it here.

I love watching programmes like the debates last week and tweeting my way through it with others – and I promise I will try and not calling David Cameron a cunt this week! (note I said try there). It can make the dullest programmes come to life.........I wonder what tweeting during Eurovision next month will be like!


Its an amazing thing, there are people who are thousands of miles away, some who work metres away and there is one more……

…… one very special tweeter out there who knows who she is and today’s song is for her.

The Pixies – Where is my mind?

And then tomorrow is Friday and I have 4 days off. A weekend of possible heart break on the football front.....

Day 2, Blog 2

"I'm your only friend, i'm not your only friend but i'm little glowing friend"

If you read my blog yesterday then I apologies as those words were probably spinning around your head for a good few hours!

After listing the track I ended up listening to the whole album and it brought back alot of memories.......

I remember being in Arran on holiday with my grandparent and it was the only album I had with me and it was on cassette. It was a great week and I was spoiled rotten, its one of my fondest memories of being with them and of my gran who is no longer with us.

She was the first family death that I went through. I can't quite remember what age I was when she died, I think I was first or second year in high school, I remember my dad telling me and then my mum getting back from the hospital and just coming into my room. She didn't say anything, she just burst into tears and hugged me. I can't remember crying until the funeral. It was only when I seen the casket being brought into the church that I broke and then I couldn't stop.

When I logged into tonight I wasn't sure what I was going to write about so there you go. Slightly random maybe but its just what fell out my Brain.

As for the soundtrack to this blog, look up Spitirulized - Broken Heart. When someone close to me dies I usually end up listen to this track and the album its on. If I am finding it hard to cry then it does the trick.

I really can't believe I am doing this

So ladies and gentlemen I am now a blogging blogger that blogs. I can't actually believe I am doing this. I never thought I would. I'm still not sure I should, but alot of people that I have been following recently on twitter do it and it was suggested to me that its a good way to get things off my chest, lord only know I could do with that sometimes.

And I am really not sure anyone is THAT interested.

So, here I am blogging. I don't know how long I will keep it up or how often I will blog, but I suppose this outlet is here if I need it. Rest assured it will be the worst spelt, worst puncuated and have the worst grammer on the whole friggin interweb.

Oh one thing I have decided is that every blog will have a song to play with it. So for starting lets go with They Might Be Giants and the theme from Flood, but that in itself is only 27 seconds long, so ill let the record run to track number 2, which is Birdhouse in your Soul.